My Sonata

My hands are small i know

2010-12-20T20:42:00.000+08:00

Wassup!

I've finally some up with a new blog as i've said i would in much previous post. Well, the name is call

La vie, L'amour, la Passion ♥

La vie means Life

L'amour means Love

la Passion means Passion

Its in French... =)

The blog title means that, Passion for life leads to a passionate life. The Love part, is that, its something to do with what i love. My mum would know that, when i'm in love with what i do, i'll be fully committed and very passionate towards it. Thus this new blog, with the blog link "im-whispering.blogspot.com" will i continue to blog with more inspiration, and more meaningful post (hopefully i'll keep up to that).

So this post, will be the last post for this year and this blog. Till the next time i start to blog, will be in the new one.

Do relink me =)

Have a blessed Christmas everyone, and have a good start of the year =)

Love,

Carmen Leong

Once upon a December

2010-12-14T21:24:00.002+08:00

Hello there! ^^

How are things, all? I know, its been 2 weeks (i think) already. Been busy lately with sometimes nothing to do or many things to do. lol! Well, when i've got nothing to do, i fill up my time by watching youtube. Lately i've been watching uploads from

Bubzbeauty/Bubbiosity

(both are her account)

She's a really cool, down to earth sweetheart =) you've really gotta check her out, people! i thank my cousin for introducing her page to me <3 thanks couzy ^^

Others channel, are mix of here and there. Mostly about make-up and baking. So, like i've mention on twitter (if you do follow), that i'll be baking carrot cake this week. And, i shall do it tomorrow =p hopefully i succeed on first attempt XD hehe (don't tell me to dream on, please... oh please... don't crush my hope)

So today, i woke up at fringging 11.30am and slept at almost 3am... Never slept this late. Why? Cause my grandma keep waking up haha! Well, she's really not well that's why, and she has been having dreams after dreams (weird one of course). And, since i'm the only gurl in the house, its my duty to take care of her and try my very best to meet her needs. I just hope, i have been doing well enough to help her to regain her strength and such... Really worried about her.

Lunch with brothers in Summit's McD ^^ craving for McD, don't know why hiak hiak hiak XD After that, drop by Watson to get

Overnight treatment by Dove

Have always been a fan of Dove since i was lil ^^

Yes, and i stays loyal to it throughout all these years

(except those times when i'm not old enough to pick shampoos on my own)

Before Dove came up with this product, i've been using

L'oreal Paris ~ Royal Jelly night serum

It works for me because...

Daily washing the hair will causes the hair to be dry and dull

Just few pumps in one use, brought the glow back to my hair the next day ^^

I could really feel my hair is once again nourished!

How cool is that ^^!

So, if you are a L'oreal Paris fan, i do recommend this =)

It melts into the hair immediately and it won't leave any mark on your pillow

Trust me when i introduce products ;) cause i'll only do so once i've tried it. Yes, i've changed to Dove because I find that the smell for this L'oreal Paris product is a lil too strong for me, unlike Dove, which is really mild and just right (even my guy student compliments the Dove deodorant I use smells good XD hahahaha! How cool and funny is that!)

I love the original one

(yes, this is the deodorant that my student likes XD lolness!!)

So yeah =) i'm an all time fan of Dove!

Its time to washed up and watch Ghost Whisperer Season 5 ^^

Till then, I'll see you around =D

*can't remember the last time i actually take photo without make-up on

(my face is hideous!!) lolz!

((the eye bags!! for sleeping at 3am last night))

quote Bubzbeauty : "Yer Yer Yer Yer!"

xoxo,

Carmen Leong

Here i go again

2010-12-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

Before

After

Tiramisu

Sorry that i haven't been updating my blog lately. Been busy with a lot of stuffs, and, there's not much to update at the moment as my life's been all about work, eat and sleep at the moment. hehe... so sorry. Do bare with me. Promise you all that i'll try to post something better soon.

Before saying goodnight, here's a pasta by me and my bro. ^^

Pasta with butter, whip cream(liquid), pepper, sweet corn.

Alright, adios, people!

Have a blessed sunday and may it be a fruitful one

Love,

Carmen Leong

Now it’s the time to worship

2010-11-27T20:05:00.001+08:00

Greetings, readers!

Hehe, it has certainly been all good lately. I must really thank You all for prayers. My grandmother is starting to think positively =D well, that’s from what my family and I thought cause she’s not more willing to take her medication and she even ask to play mah jong! AMEN to that ^^ She’s definitely more spirited right =D?

Now what’s stopping her is that, she cannot really hear us anymore. =’( its hard to talk to her or tell her stuffs. Sigh… Nevertheless, I’ll continue to have faith to GOD cause He’s healing my grandma =) Thanks so much, Heavenly Father! Nothing can ever compares to what You’ve done for my family. I’m very blessed indeed. If isn’t because of You, Lord, I’m back into depression. Because of You, You’ve talked to me through my friends like Rachel, Shaun, and others, I’m back on track =) Thanks Lord! I praise You…!

Alright I gotta go… Tomorrow is a working day for me =( btw, now is 12.21am Saturday…

Aright, blog soon…

Loves,

Carmen Leong

Comfort Stage

2010-11-23T01:06:00.001+08:00

Ola Amigos ^^

I did something really crazy today!
After finishes my APK exam, i and Rachel went to Pyramid to catch a movie where i'm supposed to be back home STUDYING for TITAS XD horrible i am! and i've just finish reading those notes an hour ago. hahahahaha!!

"Unstopppable"

The suspends is REALLY GOOD! I usually hates suspend from in any form. But this one, really got me off the chair! If you haven't catch it yet, GO WATCH NOW!!

I like it too how they highlight that those working in the similar field, their job, can't be taken for granted. A slight careless mistake can cause such humongous incident and even caused life to be at stake! I especially like it when they make it in a way where the saying goes like, "Hero lives among us". You get me? These people, the main characters, they are just human beings like us and what they did, for people they don't know. For the entire city or town or even the entire state! They've got the choice not to risk their lives to safe any strangers in need of help. But, what they did? They help those in need and knowing that they are putting their lives at risk! Thus, its a really good show which you can relate to everyday life thinking how all these people commit to their job, which most of us look down at their job and such.

After movie, i treat Rachel to Starbucks ^^ Its my turn to treat her back!

The awesome-est sister ever in uni!

I love how she make herself bold by chopping of her hair =p

She's gonna get emma's style soon =p

can't wait =p hahahahaha

New frap?

Peppermint Mocha Frap

^^ Taste SHOOOO GOOD!! ^^

I'm gonna come back for another cup!

Spotted her name on the cup =p?

Had a good catch up with her today =) and thanks for the prayers, sister!

May God continue to bless you in everything you do!

Alright, its 1am and i better GO as i have to be awake in 5hrs and 30mins time! MY LORD! AAAHHHH!!!

Ciaoz, people!!

Love,

Carmen Leong

I Have Nothing

2010-11-19T14:48:00.000+08:00

Things has been tough for me lately. Flashbacks after flashbacks. Flashbacks about hurtful moments and those bittersweet moments. But mainly, its about how someone has leave a deep scar in me which took me about 2 years to get over it and to put myself back together. I've now truthfully moved on with my life and on the go too. Just, I really don't understand why lately, i keep having those flashbacks. I do not deny the fact that its the most hurtful and painful part of me. Why did i used the word 'part of me' because its my past. And, there's nothing in the world that can change my past. I can't delete 'em, erase 'em, or even snap it off. So, that's why its part of me. After few days and nights of those flashbacks, right now, i'm able to see it from a different point of you. My past, is what that build me up today. Because of my past, I am who i am today. Because of my past, i can relate to those who went through the same incident as i had. Therefore, I thank God for leading me through this and to wake me up before i got really deep into those painful flashbacks.

Thank You, God...

Early this week ^^, my youngest bro's being so nice to help me with washing my dolls ^^ yes, ALL of my dolls except for 3 of 'em. The big ones...

my cute lil bro XD

owh, i forgot to mention,handwash ^^

yes, all of 'em handwashed

look at the amount of dolls he washed XD

thank you bro!!

Yesterday, i took my mind off by baking a full tiramisu =) its for a dear teacher who just retired from seafield. Pn Loh...

She has done lots for choir and one of the teachers who really inspired me and pushing me to go for my dreams. Which is, to take up music as my career and my degree studies. If i were to talk about how great this teacher is, it'll be a long list hahaha but i'm too lazy and tired to type already =p sorry about this, readers... I hadn't have enough sleep. Slept at 4am and wakes at 8.45am to deco the cake... Anyway, this is the process...

yes, a lot of work

yeah, i even broke a bowl...

had not been having enough sleep lately

the base of the cake. hahaha!

why is it round, you may ask?

cause i used mum's Buffalo cookware to bake this cake =)

I love it from the first use so, this base is the 2nd attempt

glad that it turn out just fine =)

Yeah, this is the Buffalo cookware i meant ^^

After cheese has been added to it and froze overnight

WA-LA!

Cake : Fully Tiramisu

Deco : cocoa powder as coating with silver pearls

Price : RM100

Its fully cream cheese that i use =) if you follow my blog, i don't use any extra stuffs to cut cost. Hehe, just got feedback from my 2 bro (they went for pn loh's surprise farewell party) its now bad =) that's all that i wanna hear. Pays off my hard work ^^

Its time for me to go. I need the nap before i head for my class later.

Till then, Bon Voyage!

God bless us all!

Love,

Carmen Leong

Take It From Here

2010-11-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

Ola! Its live blogging tonight, haha, not gonna wait till the next day to post it like i did in the previous post. Owh, the previous post i used Microsoft Word 2007 to blog then published through it. Cool that everything's starting to get connected.

My life is in such a mess right now! Why? Cause i'm being such a lazy ass! haha! Every since i've got this laptop, everything comes in next, my laptop comes first. Ish, this is really not a good thing. I need to reorganize my life and get it back on track. Starting with, sleep XD look at the time now. 12.14am. Haha! Okie, not funny. But OMG, i really can't continue to live like this anymore!

God please save me!

Anyway, yes, i've made up my mind to move to a new blog by January 2011 =) for a brand new life!! I'm thinking of using white rose or fairy as my background... any other suggestions?

Hmm, I better go to bed soon... Nights, all!

p/s : sorry its a random update XD

Love,
Carmen Leong

Time for a change?

2010-11-13T21:24:00.001+08:00

Friday, 12^th November 2010 ; 12.22am

Hey all!

I was going through profile after profile of my friends today on facebook and I realized that I've been wasting a lot of time not doing much with my life. Really, I really waste it by, playing games, etc etc and etc. I felt, horrible that I did not really grasp hold of any good opportunity and make use of every second of my life well enough.

Its true like the saying goes "Those who don't know how to budget their money, don't know how to budget their time"

I find this really true. I have a bestfriend, Manna, for short, from uni. She really knows how to make use of her money. She can come up to me saying "Carmen, you want to save money right, the cafeteria at KPS(Culture Centre) in the morning sells at a cheaper price compare to lunch hours. So if you want to save money, you can buy your lunch earlier before the lunch time" and she goes on with the price with its food. Manna can actually save up to RM60 just from food for a month! Can you believe her? Yeah, she succeeded so! Me? Sheesh, I spent on food! And, like I've quoted just now, those who budget their money, will budget time right? True enough, she make use of every second she has. Give her an assignment, she'll finish up twice faster than I can! Yes, she's amazing right? Where else can you find someone as hardworking as her? I really look up to her. She inspires me a lot! And as for that, it's time for a change! Yes, I will budget myself in everything I do from now, I'll be more appreciative towards everything I have from now, and, etc.

With that, I'm planning to move on to a new blog. At the moment I'm still thinking about if I should or I shouldn't do so. But of course, even if I've moved on to another blog, I won't close down this blog as this blog has got a lot of moments I cherish with my family and friends. And, as to remind me of what I've went through, all the pain, tears, and joy in my life so far. So as when I read back this blog, I will feel proud and appreciative of where I've come from. The journey… The steps…

So, I guess we shall see how by the end of this year then? Till then, have a good weekends!

Love,

Carmen Leong

This is reality

2010-11-12T10:14:00.001+08:00

11^th November 2010, Thursday 11.57pm

Sup! Yup, its nearly midnight now. I know I should be in bed but I felt really bad for not updating you all for so long already. Its been a lot of things happened lately. The main thing is, my final exam. Some are absolutely great! Some, is really terrible, especially my jury, which is my vocal exam. Hmm, lets not talk about it. Upset thinking about it. Overall, I'm doing quite fine. Still working, studying, trying to hangout once in a while since things are slowing down and I can finally 'breathe' hahaha!

My grandma is not doing so well. She's like, starting to act like a child. I understand, that it's really hard for her now. But the least is that, she could tell us what she feel instead of snapping all of a sudden. Anyhow, I hope she feels better soon. Its really heartache to see her like this and my mum. My mum's really awesome. I pray that God will grant her enough strength to help my grandma and prepare for the family. She has to prepare meals for us, do chores, take care of my grandma, and work! Thank God she only works 2 hours on weekdays. If she works full time, my gosh, I don't wanna picture whats gonna happen. Maybe that's why God put me into work for weekends whole day so that I'll be one less burden for my mum haha! These days, my granny has got lots of requests and demands. So yeah, I pray that my granny will open up to us instead of keeping everything to herself and snap out suddenly and that my mum will have the strength each day to look after my grandmother.

My topic, "this is reality"

Things are tough at the moment in the house. Time flies. Finals approaching and I'm facing the screen instead of black typed words on compiled papers. Roland piano competition is coming soon and there's next sem's repertoire to prepare which at the moment I'm not sure what I want in it. Not forgetting that I just told my teacher I wanted to sign up for exam. Another crazy sem next year. Can I do it? Or, I'm putting myself into another mess?

I don't know what am I doing at the moment, some of you may say so. Thus, I really need some advise and opinion as how am I to manage these. Readers, please don't hesitate to leave comments. I'll be sure to reply and I really appreciate your comments.

Alright, that's about it and its time to head to bed. Its time to get my life straighten out tomorrow first thing in the morning… Do remember me in prayers yeah. Owh, any prayer requests, don't hesitate to let me know, I'll remember you in prayers. It doesn't matter you knows me or vice versa. Cause God place me here on earth for a reason, is to help those in need. If you feel that you really need someone to hear you out or need someone to pray for you, just leave me a note, or just tweet me if you have twitter. I'll be more than glad to help you out within my capability =)

God bless us all,

Carmen Leong

Happy Birthday, Leong Kar Seng!

2010-10-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

Ola!

Sorry, i know its been a long time since i blog. Have been busy with finals and assignment and such lately...

Anyway, these are the pictures that i didn't upload on facebook...

This one is taken today...

Blessed birthday, my dear brother. My prayer is that you'll grow wiser, more mature, and that you'll come back to God =)

this one me bought from berry near where i teach

American Blackforest

this one aunt's family bought, i'm guessing its at taipan =p?

from kings ^^ nice...!

Lolz! where got people 2 cakes de...

lolz kidding =p

Yes, he is darn skinny!

But he eats more than i do...

Alright, i gotta go now... someone is nagging already...

Have a good start of the week tomorrow ya'll!

Take care!

Love,

Carmen Leong

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts, in your heart, is the only way for destiny...

2010-10-10T00:43:00.000+08:00

Annyeonghaseyo!

Hehe, since everyone is talking Korean all this while since looooong time ago, i might as well, know a thing or two so i won't be soooo left out XD lolz!

Things has been better for me now in my life. I felt i am in control of my life now. And, things starts to fall in place, the picture of everything is a lil more clearer, more motivated to achieve my goals, and be able to stand with what i believe its right, and of course with God's guidance.

A lot of things happened for the past few days. Sorry that i weren't updating my blog as i was tied down with assignments and such. Now, finals are approaching. At least all my heavy exams are a fortnight apart so i don't feel so stress.

Talking about stress/destress, i wanna thank my roommates for a wonderful night at Jaya One some time ago. I'm glad that our plan was able to be carry out although many things were in the way.

I'm missing a dear friend of mine at the moment. She's studying at Reading now. I'm feeling her homesick =p

Jia Yiing, i can't wait for you to come back to Malaysia!

My life is quite in a mess at the moment. Cause, everything is piling up. Especially finals. A lot of things to study. I really want to do well and better cause i totally regret for not putting in any effort in form 6. Yeah, i'm such a pig =p! Anyway, i hope that, i'll get all my life sorted out within 3 days from now and i strike As in all my papers, doesn't matter if its presentation, theory, principal study, and all other test. I aim for straight As!

Do remember me in prayers =) i really need 'em.

gotta run! working tomorrow =(

yeoleobun modu salang haeyo!

(love you all!)

Love,

Carmen Leong

The open wound

2010-10-06T10:44:00.000+08:00

I really don't know what's gotten into me lately. I felt i'm riding on a roller coaster mood ride. One moment, i'm so happy and on top of the world. Next, i can be sooooo jealous of sooooo many people over their success, then, i can be sooooo angry and moody for nothing. What in the world is going on with me?? Hormones changing?? Sigh, i don't know.

About my title today open wound.

I sort of had a nightmare. I actually dreamt about someone chasing after me and me trying to run away from him. It was soooo bad till i wanted to cry in my dream. He, is someone from my past who had, shatter my life into bits and pieces till i bleed myself out. And which i've finally put every part of my life back together now. And i'm finally even on the go. The nightmare yesterday was just too de-motivating! I don't know who can i turn to help for this. Its just so long a history already! I don't get it why is it haunting me in my sleep. Not just once.
Everytime this happens, i keep telling myself that i deserves every bits of happiness, i deserves to leave all the broken pieces and memories behind and to start a brand new chapter and move on to a new world. But, it keeps holding me back. I'm not holding on to this. I'm not, waiting for him. I'm not loving him anymore. He's a past. A past that has a scar in my heart that i can't shake it off. I don't want to bleed out once more.

I deserves every bits of happiness.....

p/s : never stop smiling and never show your pain...

Love,

Carmen Leong

Welcome to my life!

2010-10-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

Greetings!

Its been half month since the last time i blog =p my bad, i know. i promised to keep you updated whenever i could. But i was overloaded with too many stuffs in hand. Hmm, uncountable stuffs. Can't really remember. But one of the recent is my ptptn. I was really disappointed about it that i couldn't get it done. When its done, i went to hang it up so that the officer can check to see if there's anything missing and such. There's 2 mistakes that i made in the application paper. So, mine was decline. I feel more disappointed cause, i went through so many troubles just to get it done, worry for nothing about the process and now, its decline. And to make it worse, the officer told me to get the declination paper and sign myself. Sigh, i know, right... bad luck whole month!

Then i told her i want to reapply, how am i supposed to do that now or can they like just approve half the loan instead. She then guide me how to do it and i done it there and then. The officer was in pretty good mood that day (yesterday). Probably cause not much people since that its the last day.

After settling everything there and then, i had a heart to heart talk with 2 of my close coursemate. And, its just so amazing how one talk between 3 person can lead to, sisterhood. And, its known as, Ice (renee) Blended (fionna) Honey (peggy) Lemon (myself) Tea (jessica) Juice (gar han)! Hahaha! its so funny! we formed our sisterhood name that very same day XD lolness! i can believe that we're going to stay strong together =)

My grandma still not in good condition. She has thin down! Seeing her in this way, makes me feel so pain. She wanted to give up! Lord, no... please... guide her through this!

Apart from all this, my faith towards has definitely been a lil more stable now than before. God is my everything. I'm solely depending on Him for everything from now on.

Alright, i'm too tired already. Sorry that its a really random post, everyone. Will do a better one next time, i promise =)

Till then, nights!

Lots of love,
Carmen Leong

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!

2010-09-22T20:53:00.000+08:00

Its so nice right?

Have a good one, everyone =)

God bless,

Carmen Leong

I got a feeling

2010-09-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

Sweethearts!!

My granny is getting better ^^ Good to hear! My dad said she can even eat herself now! Praise God! Hallelujah! Oh Lord! You're just pure amazing =') I knew believing in You and Your miracle is the right thing to do! I'm so glad that i did not disobey my heart that i should continue to believe the impossible. Lord, i'm so happy! Its like the best news i ever heard so far at the moment. My granny is improving day by day. I'm missing her so much now. Lord, please continue to heal her.

And to my dear readers, yo guys are totally amazing for consistently praying for my grandmother. You are just so awesome! And i know that God will bless you abundantly for being so kind. Though it may be just a prayer, but a prayer, can change everything.

Alright, as for my side of the story, i'm not doing so well. I'm so indulge with 'my own world' and 'my feelings' and everything about me. I don't know what is going on within me. I'm just in like, self-disappointment-mood or something. I don't know what is that either. Just, down. Yeah, i'm in my sensitive moments now. Maybe just because i'm not getting enough rest. Maybe, i'm just under pressure for everything that's going on in my life now. Maybe, I'm just tired of all the fake-ness surrounding me. Maybe, i just, don't get what's going on and that, i'm losing my own self. Whatever it is, I'm just feeling not enough. But. Maybe i'm just too sensitive over things. Sigh, I'm so tired. Emotionally tired, mentally tired, affecting me physically tired.

*raining now...good*

Owh yeah, i'm back at campus. But going back tomorrow after class at 1pm to celebrate Mooncake Festival. I can't wait. I'm feeling that I'm living a depressingly aimless life. Yeah, perhaps, that's the right word. Depressingly aimless life. I gotta find myself back. I gotta step back. So, perhaps, i'll blog more or lesser, i don't know. It depends, as i'm a mood blogger. Anyway, i wish you dear readers a good week ahead, and stay optimistic. Nothing ever gets in your way, only yourself =)

Getting off now. Planning to head to bed early. Yeah. 10.30pm.
Nights, sweethearts!

p/s : please continue to pray for my grandmother so that she'll be fully heal.
pp/s : any prayers that you wish to share with me, don't be shy to mail me or any medium that you know to contact me

Lots of love,
Carmen Leong

Power of Love

2010-09-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

Hey sweethearts!

I want to thank ALL of you who prayed for my grandma ^^ she's a lil more energetic today and her leg isn't swollen already. I'm so happy. You guys are amazing for willing to uphold my beloved grandma in prayers. I may not have anything in return for your sincere prayers. But here's a prayer for those who've help me.

"My dear Heavenly Father, I uphold those who have been praying for my grandmother. I pray that you will bless them abundantly in Your ways and that You'll continue to watch over them. I pray that You'll fill them with love, peace, joy, and good health each and every day."

I hope that you'll continue to pray for my grandma. Your continuous prayers are very much appreciated from the bottom of my heart =) I felt truly bless to have you, sweethearts following blog. At the moment, she's still not really opening up to us to let us help her more. But i understands cause she don't want to trouble us. So, hopefully she'll open up even more. Alright, I'm signing off now cause i want to go and check on her before i head to bed.

Goodnight, sweethearts!

God bless you all for being so kind,
Carmen Leong

Can't live...if living is without you

2010-09-17T21:49:00.001+08:00

Readers of my blog,

Sorry if this isn't what you want to read. But i just have to say it out somewhere, somehow. So, my blog is the option for now.

I'm feeling really down right now. Very very upset. There's a 'doctor' said that my grandmother's case is getting more serious. Which is true. Cause yesterday and today, she couldn't even get up. As if almost paralysed or something. I feel so sad. 'He' also said, we have to be prepared. I felt, so, torn. I'm very very close to this grandmother. I even take her out (just me and her) for yumcha. And we can sit by the coffee shop for 2 hours talking. Which grandmother would actually go yumcha with their grandchildren? Mine. If yours too, then, you're very very blessed. Make sure you continue to do that more often. You'll really appreciate it more than ever. As for me, i can't do that anymore. But i hope, miracle will happen. That she'll get well. And we can go yumcha again.

I can't take this that i've already lost my maternal's grandma. 3 months ago. And now... I'm not gonna say it. Afraid saying that it will happen.

My heart is crying in pain... so pain...
I can't focus on anything i do now. And to think that i'll be going back to campus this sunday. Screw this, man! I can't take this! I can't bare this!

GRANDMA!!!
http://myysonata.blogspot.com/2010/02/quality-time-with-granny.html

Carmen Leong

Happy Malaysia!

2010-09-16T16:09:00.000+08:00

Happy Malaysia to every Malaysian!

p/s : i'm just being thankful cause i'm on holiday ^^ now, don't spoil my day! hahahaha!

God bless us all,
Carmen Leong

Worth the $$$?

2010-09-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

Okie, so i had registered myself with the Digi-Telco thingy where it allows me to receives sms alert from twitter from whom i may favor and applied. Its weekly charges is RM1. I'm not so fond of it at the moment, but i'm giving it a try out for a week to see how. If its good, i'll carry on. If its not, i'll just cancel it. But most likely than not, i'll cancel it. Cause RM1 per week is, a little too much whereas my bro, registered for sms alert for facebook (Maxis), only pays RM2 per month! Doesn't quite make sense to me... I don't know what you think. But I don't see it quite worth from where i come from. Gah! Its so much better if i have iphone or blackberry or something. Where i can just tweet all i want. But heck, where am i gonna get all the $$$? sure, i'm working, but i need the $$$ for my uni too. Sigh... Owh well, like i said to myself before, i should be investing my time in something more worth while than something like this. Hmm, yeah... You know what i'll do.

TIll then, jagbyeol insa!

salang manh-eun,

Carmen Leong

My current phone

2010-09-10T12:49:00.000+08:00

I saw sharon's new phone that i really like a lot ^^ nokia 5530 xpressmusic. lolz, i know i shouldn't blog about it, but, just to let things out so i feel better later ^^ lolz!

After thinking through, not gonna change my phone. My dad actually wanted a new phone for himself. But then i was like, i wanted a new phone, and it was my bro's birthday, so he exchange his bonuslink's points for the current phone i'm using now. nokia 5130 xpressmusic. so...after thinking it through, i'm gonna change my phone, which i've been really taking care of. perhaps later on...

yeah! the transparent cover has turn into black colour! lolz!

we'll see how as things goes then ^^
really wants a fully touchscreen xpressmusic phone XD

God bless us all,
Carmen Leong

Rise and Shine!

2010-09-09T13:28:00.000+08:00

1030am

Morning lots! ^^

really like this flower that i drew and color with

magic color pen a lot...

have a great day, lovelies!

tata!

God bless,

Carmen Leong

Happy Birthday, Mom!

2010-09-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

Not much of words tonight, Probably just 3 pictures and that's it...

Blessed Birthday, mummy!

I love you so much!

bet she can't read my writing XD

my handwriting is so hard to read these days

even i myself find it hard XD lolz!!

i know you love flowers even though

you don't say anything about it ;)

I'm glad that my dad brought my mum and brothers out for dinner at least, Moon Garden. I volunteered to stayed back at home to take of granny. Thank God i did. Well, after everything was done, just in time my parents and bros came back with my dinner. hahaha! Vegetarian Lasagna. I feel, fatigued... oh no... =.= time to diet...

Getting off, feeling tired. Sorry there isn't much to talk about today. Forgive me...

I even felt like stop playing all games from facebook. Why? I don't know. Maybe i spent too much time on facebook that's why. And, i want a new phone. So greedy! My phone not even 1 year old i think. or, has it? Can't remember. I want a touch screen phone, can surf web can, functions like Xpressmusic. lolz, okie, too much. Anyway, i'm buzzing off now. Don't feel too well. Been sleeping 3am these days. Crazy. Better start my assignments soon. Ciaoz!

Love,

Carmen Leong

Great Day

2010-09-07T09:35:00.001+08:00

Today was good. No, it was amazing ^^!

Cause grandma had rice for lunch! Hallelujah!! My heart was in pure joy! So grateful to God that I see signs of improvement from her although its really slow, but in this case, its so much better than never. Thank You so much, Lord, You bless me well. I pray that You'll continue to heal my grandmother.

My mood today's better =) partly because that my grandma's health is improving, but mainly cause of yesterday's devotion. Psalm 55. The words from Psalm 55 has never been more alive. It came across to me more than once, twice, but thrice! Telling me that God is always there to hear me out no matter do I sense Him there or not. Its just too amazing. I sure had a better rest yesterday.

Other than my grandma and my mood, I had a good chat-eating time with my sisterhood. I misses them so dearly. Glad that we get to catch up. And of course, as usual, the food-feast that we always had XD and this time, somehow, we sort of able to clear up more than before. Probably because its been sometime since we ate like this. Every single food prepared by them, totally rocks me out! Couldn't have been better. The chicken is just rightly baked. The shepherd's pie, the taste is perfect. The meat somehow tasted a bit like beef. Haha! The macaroni, of course, as usual, cheesy ^^ Mash potatoes, hmm, perfect as usual. Somehow, it's a must have for the Kampung Sibuk. Without it, its like something missing. I love the desserts that Sharon prepared. Everything is just perfect! Haha! Sharon, you can actually go for cooking competition… Guaranteed to claim a prize already!

Its totally awesome… Owh, we celebrated Sharon's belated birthday too. Dang, didn't get to try the ice cream cake cause I had to go back early, well, curfew, terrible…… I'm missing them already.

Tomorrow about 10am, Kelly's gonna come over to my house. Then after that, we're going to Summit to meet up with Michelle. Then lunch together. Then, I don't know, coffee break? Hahaha! We'll see how it goes tomorrow.

Better sleep now. Its already 1.10am

Nights, lovelies. God bless you all!

Love,

Carmen Leong

Depression

2010-09-05T22:40:00.001+08:00

Dear lovelies!

My grandma's been better, thanks so much for the prayers. She's finally able to stand up even if it's just for the millisecond.

These few days has not been good for me. I've been thinking too much and lots of flashbacks which definitely hurts. I wish i could just erase my past.

I wanna get away. Far far away. By the beach. Just me, God and nature. No phone. No tech. Just away from city-life. I want to hear the sea breeze blowing pass my ear. Lifting my hair and running through my neck. I want to hear the waves crashing on the rock. The birds chirping. The sunset so orangey-comforting and breath taking all at once. Leaving me feeling is just me in the world. Yeah, i just wanna shut everything outta my mind. I don't wanna think about anything, hear about anything nor do i wanna know anything.

A broken heart still in pieces looking for a space to breathe

Take care, lovelies...

Thanks for hearing me out

Lots of love,

Carmen Leong

Not so good

2010-09-03T12:19:00.000+08:00

Sup readers!

i'm back home yesterday late night about almost 10-11pm. The reason why i'm back home so early cause i needed to take care of my grandma. My heart hurts each time i see her in this condition. She couldn't even sit up. Need people to help her. My heart hurts...so much... I wish she'll get well soon. yeah, i break down...again...

p/s : grandma...please...get well... i know you wanna get well too... i understand how you feel...but please don't force yourself too much... i know you wanna get well quickly so that we can all go on a holiday. i love you, grandma, stays strong, don't give up!

Lots of love,

Carmen Leong

Self pampering is GOOD!

2010-08-31T17:54:00.003+08:00

Good Afternoon, lovelies !!

How have you lots been? Good? Bad? Frustrated? Sad? hehe, however it is, hope it'll be fine...

These few days has been, worries and a lot of pampering ^^

1. I'm worried about my students' progress. A lot of them are not really progressing well. And some like the hyper ones, i really don't know how to help them, feeling so helpless. Mum was saying that, that's why not many people wanna be a teacher. Its no easy job. Yeah, i finally understands how teachers feel when their students don't progress well, not doing homework and all. I took a few pictures of the place i work at...

^^ what ya think?

hehe, can you spot fullhouse? yesh, its much nicer

than the one in pyramid as this one really looks

more like a garden...

don't you just love the layout?

i sure do ^^ and the view is beautiful at night

yeah, everything there is more towards high class or branded stuffs

Oh, guess what... i have a student whose name is also Carmen! Lolz! But her full name is Carmen Yong. A lil different.

hehe, she knows i'm trying to take a pic of her XD

Boy i tell you she can really talk!

hehehe, the staffs here call her Carmen no.2

although, we're totally not alike.

I love her big eyes a lot.

hehe, her mum totally reminds me of

my high school choir couch. Miss her lots...

2. Self-pampering ^^

Yup! I pampered myself a lot lately, probably cause i felt that i had enough of a lot of stuffs. And did i mentioned that i sprained my right leg, both my wrists, migraine, backache and chest tense? hehehehe... probably stress and not enough rest... that's why, its time for self-pampering ^^

What i did? ^^ mask! hehe, thanks to polynia, my face don't look so stress up now.

Today, i went shopping all alone!! ^^ woohoo! hadn't been doing that in a long time. Hehe, had a really good me-time just now at The Gardens. I really have to thank Cleo and Fiorucci for the gift voucher. ^^ Yup, i'm among the top readers to receive the voucher ^^ Really really grateful for it. Here's some pic at The Gardens today...

Fiorucci at The Gardens

like how it look so...erm...high class? haha!

After done shopping and walking around, and waiting for my parents to pick me up... hmm, girls being girls, when bored with nothing to do... XD

haha! yeah, this is what i did while waiting by the entrance

Turns out that its really bad jam at Gardens so mum said to pick me up at Mega Mall. If i knew that i had to walk there later, should have gone there shopping first =p there's more things to shop for at Mid Valley! And i could have gotten my Tonal Harmony book there...

Yeah, this book here.
Wanted to get the original.
Look at the price!
Hehe, well, just for the keeps.
Asked mum, and she said she's okie with it.

Crossed to commuter station and off to lunch at SS15 with parents.

Owh! I can't wait to show you what i bought...

the bag looks really sweet ^^

yup, i bought 2 stuffs...

I love this purple heels ^^ hehe, mum said

its too tall for me cause, well, special case ;)

Among all that i've seen, this one i like best.

Besides, the saleslady told me that, all Fiorucci stocks are limited.

Every design has only one pair per size per store.

They don't redo another one so that it'll be unique.

If its true, i thank God that i bought the last one!

Hehe, hopefully no one has the same one as mine =p

It feels comfy wearing them.

But if you're gonna ask me about shopping with it,

I don't know, gonna try it out, sometime later =p

hehe, yes, the 2nd thing that i bought.

can you guess whats it?

yup, a bottle of perfume ^^ this one's definitely bigger

than my first perfume, from silky girl

and, i definitely love this perfume more as

its not so strong and last longer.

Did i mention that i just showered an hour plus ago and the scent

is still on me now? Yeah! That long-lasting XD

hehe, feel so excited ^^

Probably you're now asking how much does all this costs me, right?

The heels costs RM299

The perfume costs RM129

Total ori price that i have to actually would be RM428.

Yeah, expensive right? Can go for other place instead right ^^?

But, since i've gotten a RM200 voucher,

the heels i only pay RM99

And since too that its merdeka sale, 53% discount,

the perfume i only pay RM60.65

So in total, i only gave RM159.65 compared to RM430!

So happy ^^ and, i finally bought the right perfume ^^ been searching for high and low for a good not so strong but long-lasting one. Soooooooooooo happy today ^^

Though i really enjoyed myself today, but i've got to admit, i'm not fully enjoying myself after what happened this EARLY morning. I'm not gonna talk about it here as, its something to do with my grandma. All i can say is that, Grandma, please get well soon. I'm sorry i'm so helpless at times. But please, if you need anything, do not hesitate to call for help, especially from me and my bros. We'll always be more than glad. I can't bare to see you like this anymore. Please heal her, Lord, please heal my dearest grandma... *cries*

That's about it for today... Hope you guys will uphold my grandma in prayers that she'll get well soon and regain back her strength. It hurts everytime seeing her like this. it hurts so bad till i just wanna stay here and take care of her than going back to uni to study. And, my uni, is very strict about attendance...

God bless you all too, lovelies... take care!

p/s : oops, forgot to say this...

Happy Independence Day, people ^^

Selamat Menyambut Hari Merdeka!!

Loves,

Carmen Leong

Blessed Birthday, Gar Han!

2010-08-25T00:20:00.003+08:00

Yes! A very blessed birthday to you, my dearest friend ^^ One year older now! 20 yrs old! Like everyone else, grow bigger!

hahaha..... as you can see, she's blur in this photo. AND, small size! i'm already small size! She's even smaller than me! But of course, she's small and thin, where as i'm small but fat. LOL!

Anyway, Gar Han, its been a great pleasure having you as a dear friend. Really. You've been there through easy and tough times for me. Hear me out when i needed someone to confide to. Laugh and watch me cry too. You're really a great friend. A true genuine friend. I hope that our friendship will blossom more and that even after graduate as a recitalist, we'll still keep in good contact and even meet up at least once a month. Thanks so much for everything!

I guess i don't have to tell the whole story you guys probably figure out about the present right =p? Yeah, her present is just a small key chain. Its actually a pair. She's holding the girl's side. The guy's side? Well, all i can say is that, stay tune to find out ;) I'm sure you guys are eager to find out right? hehe, well, not so soon... be a lil more patient ^^

Funny Day

Guess what happened to me today?

I walked back to college and reached about 5pm. I was unpacking my stuffs and then i realised there's a black recycle bag. Its the books that i borrowed from the library. Then it hit me hard! LIBRARY!! Today's the due date and i borrowed 5 books! My goodness... At first i thought, "Baa, forget it, i'm too tired to walk already. Shall return it tomorrow instead" but then... what about the fine if i'm late? The thought of paying kills me so i pick up my lazy bum and start walking all the way back to music fac to look for Gar Han to see if she would like to follow me. While walking back to music fac, i felt that, my bag is too heavy as i don't think the 5 books i borrowed are THAT heavy. So i open my bag and too my surprise, I actually brought along my really THICK and HEAVY Tonal Harmony Theory book! Sheesh! I'm such a careless person! Reached faculty, look for Gar Han. Thank God she's willing to follow me there then straight back to college. Grrr... So mad at myself. Then when i reach back college. My roommates asked where i went. Told them the whole situation. Guess what they said? "Err, why not just renew online?" I was like... yeah, you guessed it, speechless! Lolz!! What a joke, man! Well, at least i got the 'exercise' part workout! lolness!

Good Time

Me and Mei Yee, my roommate didn't go down for dinner just now. Cause, don't felt like eating at DTP. So we decided to pack out dinner up since like what she said, we hadn't been eating in the room for quite some time already. And of course, its a good thing cause when we went down, everywhere is full! Really really packed! Wonder why? Cause we're late? Neh, not the reason. You can see that its totally full house! and every table has got more than 4 people! Haha... While lining up to get out food, a friend, senior, but same age, Tet Hien, was behind me. Mei Yee was saying "The key chain sender is behind you" i turn, and was surprised. haha, and Lim Yong Thye (who btw looks like my cousin bro) was beside him. Then yeah, i greeted them. After that, i was speaking in mandarin to Mei Yee. Then he was like, "Eh! you can speak mandarin?" lolz! I told him, "No, i can't speak mandarin" in Mandarin XD haha!! And so on... It was quite funny the whole conversation.

Me and Mei Yee went back to our room and had a good chat over our 'tapau' dinner. We were talking about guys and how big can a father's influence be towards their daughter's lives. My conclusion over the discussion was, my future husband, shall not be any less like of my father. Talking about dad to Mei Yee makes me misses my dad so much. Felt like calling him up to tell him how much i misses him. Well yeah, i was about to do so when i grab my phone but unfortunately, i look at the time on my phone and only to realize that i was late for my choir practice. So, note to self, call back home later.

Choir

Choir was funny today ^^ We ended our practice with singing birthday songs to Gar Han in 3 languages. English, Mandarin, Cantonese and Malay. (Note that Mandarin and Cantonese are Chinese languages but of different dialect). Then, we were all talking about birthdays and all. Haha! And, i'm actually the oldest there! Goodness me! hahaha!! Although there's this 'lil guy', his birthday is 9th January, one day before mine, keep calling me 'mei mei' (lil sister in chinese). Lolz, he's 1991. I'm 1990. He sort of like insists. So fine, i called him kor kor (elder bro in chinese). Which of course, isn't quite right, but, its okie cause its funny when i call him 'kor kor', the way he responded was, funny XD. He was like as if no one calls him that before XD hahahahaha!! I really like this kid, he always makes my day without doubt. Good guy he is. After that, choir is dismiss. Good ^^ cause i'm already coughing and tired. Sung too much today, i presume. But its all good, just need more water and i'll be fine.

So, overall, its cool =)

Wow, look a the time, 12.10am already! Its time for me to sleep. I'm actually trying to discipline myself to sleep before 11pm from monday onwards. But, of course, failed! hahaha! Requires more self-discipline. Alright, i better end soon before i goes on and on with my grandmother story. Cool? hehe...

Owh! before i leave, I spotted something, Gar Han! *cough cough* gave you =p!

Lolz! bigger than the ones our gang got for you (my gang gave her key chain). I kept asking what did *cough cough* gave her. But she just wouldn't tell. Fine...Its okie... *merajuk*

hahahah....

I'm off now. Gonna need to wake up early tomorrow. Breakfast with roommate. Hopefully can wake up in time. She's studying for tomorrow's test now btw XD

Till then, nights people =)

p/s : i'm not into anyone at the moment, so please don't misunderstands when i write anything about guys. I wanna achieve my goal here first, which is, to graduate within the shortest time frame.

Love,

Carmen Leong

Grateful

2010-08-24T00:43:00.000+08:00

Heyz all!

I'm here to update a lil to recent stuff.

Been going through a lot of stuffs lately and i'm sure you guys know if you've been keeping up with my blog. Things are 'kinda' a lot better than last week, i guess. And a lot less pain, lil more bearing, lil less akwardness, so on. Honestly, i really don't know what i want from this. I only wished that all this never happened in the first place. After all, who am i to blame? Only me, myself.

As for uni-life, i'm still trying to fit into the surroundings. Its kinda hard. Be it staying in college or my music faculty, where i study in. The music faculty is under constructions. According to quite a reliable source, the music faculty may be shifting to DTC and DTC will be moving to a higher-rising building. Yeah, its still under constructions. But then, us moving to DTC? Hmm, DTC is really an old place. Why move there. Did you see the plants growing all over the building? I'm not sure what kind of plant is that call. All i know that it crawls. Haha! Forgive me, but yes, i've returned all my science knowledge to my respective teachers. Biology, Chemistry and Physics.

Studies so far, still able to cope. Not too bad.

I'm worry about my principle study and other uni subjects.

As for my principle study, its still quite hard for me as i only took up vocal lessons not too long ago.

A friend was asking B friend how long has she been learning vocal. She said 7 years. I was like, wow... Then i ask B friend, how long have she been learning vocal, she said 10 years. I was like, WOW! Then A friend asked me, how long have i been learning vocal. I was like, "Err, hehehe... 2 years only". They were like, owh!

lolz! I'm the odd one. But, i'm really not kidding. I've been learning piano since i was 3+ and its like, i've been learning for almost all my life. Vocal? Since 2008 midyear. Sometimes i felt i shouldn't have changed my major instrument cause piano has been something that i've been doing all my life. But then, i stop my piano classes for more than a year already. Yeah, and i still have not start back my piano class. Still looking around for a good teacher. I choose vocal, basically because its something recent and that, i still have my vocal teacher to rely on for sources and such and also, i really want to graduate as a recitalist. According to a super senior, aka my colleague, she said vocal should be easier to become a recitalist cause a lot of pianist. Yeah, there's like, 15 pianist! And only 3 vocalist. I would rather compete with 2 people than all 15 of them! And they're all darn good. So what i'm only better at sight-reading? hahaha! i have no techniques like them. After all, i hate being challenge. haha! serious... i don't know why too. But i do know that i'm easily challenged. Which of course, its not a good thing.

Right, next topic... Work

So far, i'm really happy cause i see all my students improve although some only improve 1%. Well, like what people said, Its better than none. For this case, absolutely so! Totally better than none! Oh! I've got a student who starts with me since April i think, is now doing Grade 1! Yeah! Would you believe it? My student has just started grade 1 theory with me! I'm so proud of her. And, 2 of my slowest and hyper-ist students show small improvement too! I was sooooo happy! Because, as a teacher/parents, seeing a kid improves, means a lot. Cause then i know, i'm guiding them using the right way cause as you know, different children needs to use different ways to teach them. So are humans, different people takes in things differently.

Its 12.34am now...

yeah, i should really be sleeping. Then wake up early to do my French assignment which i really hate myself for not doing it much earlier. Sigh. I"m such a lazy pig!

Oh! Before i forgets, i really wanna thank Mei Yee, Yong Fong, Tet Hien and Osward for the key chain.

Its really thoughtful of you, Yong Fong and Tet Hien!

Mei Yee : Be happy, my dearest roommate

Yong Fong : God bless you! Jesus loves you!

Tet Hien : Nice SF Night!

Nice to meet you

Vocalist and Pianist

Hahahaha...thank you so much, that's really thoughtful of ya all!

Alright, I guess that's about it. Will update when there's something to update about.

p/s : thanks to sisters for sharing time every thursday and just now. Thank you so much that you put in effort to come to us every week. I'm very touch and really appreciate everything that you guys have done to reach out to us, and especially to God. Its really an amazing work. Hope to see you soon. God be with you!

Goodnight lovelies!

Lots of love,

Carmen Leong

Been better?

2010-08-18T23:57:00.001+08:00

Sup, readers!

Yesh, as you can see, my emotions are better now. And, I don't feel so frustrated already. Cause, i've begin to let things go. Whatever happened, happens for a reason. I believe so. Whether for good, or even bad. I learnt a lot from it too.

Tomorrow is Thursday right? I really can't wait to go back home. I missed home so much. I miss my bed. I miss my messy room. I miss my parents, my family. I miss my friends. I miss everything back at Subang! Really can't wait.

Anyway, just thought of updating my blog a little. =)
Should i download drama series? like, gossip girl and season 3 of 90210?
Hehe, give me some comments. I would love to read what you guys think. Anything will do.

Alright, i better head to bed early tonight as my stomach already starts making sound. Hopefully i can wake up early tomorrow to have breakfast with my roommates as i broke my promise this morning cause i was too tired. After an early breakfast, then, study ^^ i begin to love music theory class. All thanks to Dr. Yeo. He is a good teacher. Owh! I nearly forgot. I have extra class tomorrow for theory. Though i still can cope, i just wanna be, better. I wanna do the best i could. Cause, i want to graduate as a Recitalist, not with thesis.

Since tomorrow's principle study would be in French, so...
Bonsoir! (Goodnight!)

Avec l'mour, (with love)
Carmen Leong

p/s : remember to say a lil rayer before you sleep ;)

Fullhouse / Fatigue / Frustrated / Fuyoh!

2010-08-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

Let's see... According to the topic....

1. Fullhouse!! ^^ (Sunway Giza, Kota Damansara)

guiltiness-satisfaction??

oh, yeah!!

nyammmmmm.......

can it be any better than this for break? ^^

Yup, i'm actually on the 2nd floor and yeah,

the 'garden' is totally awesome!!

don't you just love the layout? ^^ I sure do!!

I can't wait to go back there again.

But this time, i'm planning to bring my roommate ^^

2. Fatigue & Frustrated.

That's what i've been feeling and going through this few days.

I'm really upset and tired about my life at the moment.

I hope things will be better soon. Cause, i really can't take it

when things are as bad as just now. I kinda like, broke down

or something. But yeah, i do feel better after my choir

practice =) and of course thanks to a new friend for making

up my day. I actually dind't smile the entire day today. But

my new friend, thanks to his naive-ness or blur-ness, I burst

out laughing immediately! hahahaha!! Yesh, and i actually

sing in the shower just now XD hahaha!

Right, back to reality. Tomorrow'll be a loooonngg day. God,

I pray that You'll be with me and guide me through it. I pray

that You'll ease my pain, Lord...

3. Fuyoh!

Well, this.....is just XD i have a good hair day, today ^^

You know what people say...

Good hair day always made up any gurls' day ^^

Alright, its 1.08am now. I should really be sleeping an hour ago. But i want to blog, so, that's why there's today's post. So erm, i guess i should go now, since i'm done with the post. And, i need to be awake about 7am if i wanna have breakfast! =( this is why i don't like staying in hostel. But sigh...things are complicated about me continuing to stay here. I'll explain another time. Till then, goodnight, people =)

May God be with you!

Lots of love,

Carmen Leong

Doubts

2010-08-11T02:08:00.000+08:00

Hey y'all!

How have things been? Good? Bad? Well, as for me, both good and bad. I've got lots of stuff to do and i don't know where to begin from and, lack of sleep. Good thing, well, i don't know. I know i should be sleeping now, but i just felt the urge to blog a little although i don't know what i wanna talk about here.

Owh! I'll be participating in this Roland Piano Competition. I'll be in the Duet Category with Peggy. I've never participated in any piano competition before. This'll be my first experience and i'm pretty excited about it although i know there's lots of stuffs to prepare, not to mention that i've to be active in my college activities in order to continue staying here. I suddenly felt that i've participated too much. Although so far, i've got 3 activities in hand. The patriotic performance at my college (note that college is hostel here), MPA from my college, and, the competition. I don't know if i'm doing the right thing at the moment. I mean, i'm studying from monday to friday, extra-activities at weekdays night time, then weekend, whole day working. Am afraid if i'm not able to cope up with everything. I felt a heavy burden on my shoulder at the moment. What if i made the wrong decision to be active at college activities. Hmm, i better talk to my parents about this matter before i got myself more responsibilities in hand. After all, i'm not very organize kinda person.

Though, staying at college really got me into experiencing uni-life which you can never get it elsewhere and its like, once in a lifetime opportunity kinda thing. And, staying here makes everything really convenient except the without-car thingy. My faculty (the place i study) are really far! Nearest faculty (cultural centre) takes about 15 minutes to walk. And of course, the hotter the weather, the slower i walk ;)

You know, i'm still thinking if i've made the right choice in studying music cause i felt so weird to think that i'll be graduating with a music degree to either teach music or perform. And, as you know, music field is not-those-kinda-'stable field' i would name it. Stable field to me are like, doctors, economist, accountant, engineers, etc etc. Music teacher? Recitalist? Its like, not a fix job. I feel a lil insecure with what i'm doing now. Though yeah, i know, there's no turning back. I know i shouldn't be talking about this too cause it'll affect me in someways. But, there's just a huge doubt in me that i couldn't not stop thinking about it. Probably cause its just...
Robert Frost (1874-1963) ~ The Road Not Taken
"I took the one less traveled by,"

I keep thinking about this poem... Probably I should just Quote the entire poem here...

Anyhow, this is the path i've already chosen, i shouldn't turn back. Should look at things from a different angle, right?

Tell then,
my prayers for today...

To those who're sick
May the Lord heal you and restore you health.

To those who's lost like me
May the Lord continue to shine your path and guide the way. May God grant us enough faith to continue to trust in Him in all that He has already prepared for us. May He reveal the path a lil more clear to us so that we shall not fall off to the wrong path that may mislead us. I pray too that He'll bless us with wisdom.

To the rest
May God be with you and shower you with blessings each and everyday and may He be part of your life.

That's quite about it for now. Its already 2:07am, you probably already knew. I need to sleep for real now XD haha!
Till then, goodnight, will blog soon.

XOXO,
Carmen Leong

Wishes

2010-08-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

To my buddy :
My condolence and blessed birthday to you! Hope you'll still be able to celebrate and really have a blast. After all, its your birthday! ;)

To those who are sick :
Get well soon. Drink lots of water!!

To those lack of practice :
Lets work together!! Burn the midnight oil!! And make the guard chase us out again like yesterday =D That was kinda fun actually!

To those less fortunate :
May God bless you and may you be the apple of His eyes.

To those who's feeling down :
Cheer up =) Despite all the bad things that happened, there's always something good out of it and, no matter what, you're never alone.

To those who's working really hard :
Don't work too hard! Get some rest =p Or you'll end up like me, blur, tired, migraine, and lose focus in everything you do

Last but not least :
Thank you daddy for taking me out today! Love you so much!
Thanks to my family members for being so supportive and loving!! Love you all lots!!

To everyone out there :
God bless =)

Love,
Carmen Leong

Random update

2010-08-04T01:11:00.000+08:00

Yo! Just got back from my faculty. Why so late? Hmm.... practice? Heh! Yeah,i seriously did practice XD Its really creepy staying there till 12am. Seriously, seriously creepy! The hall is dark. And, its total pin drop silent.

Well, i practiced in a room with grand piano and upright with Gar Han. One of my close friends here. hehe.... i finish practice mine and was, erm, nothing to do... so... i, quietly took this picture when Gar Han was practicing XD

yes, i was that bored!
haha!

Today, i had a great time playing duet with Peggy.

Although we're just sight reading, we totally click off! It makes me feeling regret for changing my major instrument. dang! Actually, i really want to major in 2 instruments. But, unfortunately, no such thing here wor..... Owh well.........

Hmm, then, about almost 12am, we went to the main studio to erm, i don't know.... play around XD?

hehe, something tells me that this 2 fella will go a looooong more way =p

After some 'ss' moments with Peggy - photos and piano, we went back to college. Thanks Peggy and Jia Hoang for dropping us off. That's really sweet of you both =)

Anyway, i should better sleep now.
Or, my black circles will get much more more worse!

Goodnight all!

God bless,
Carmen Leong

Fun? Stress? Mix up ^^?

2010-07-29T15:15:00.000+08:00

Hey you! hehe, i know i have promised that i'll blog as frequent as possible. But, i just don't seem to have the time. My schedule is quite pack. If not with class, then it would be with practices. Yeah, practices is killing me slowly at the moment. Hehe, like certain quotes, "slow and painful death". Actually, right now, i would rather sleep. Yep, i would rather catch up on my sleep than to blog. Sorry. Having sleep deprivation. And, the normal migraine that always comes with sleep deprivation. But owh well, I have to live with it right? I'm staying in Campus. And, staying in campus without being involved in activities organize by my college or faculty, is kinda tough. But i have to say, i really enjoy my uni life. Despite the fact that i'll have to walk to lectures and sometimes, there is no water at my block. Well, seems like the better to word to use would be, frequent. Hehe... Other than that, its cool =) i love it here. All my seniors are friendly. Really love them. They actually treat us really nice. Really REALLY nice. No kidding. I have that feeling like, we're part of a family. yeah..... Especially he CC (Chinese Community) in my college. I would consider us close. They really take care of us juniors. Though we're not THAT close, but can see that they're treating us like, we're part of the family or something. Do you get what i mean? Lolz!

I'm now relaxing myself by listening to Beethoven songs.I love his songs. Always reminds me of Beethoven Virus. If you haven't already watch the drama series, i would say, go and watch now. Very touching... Hahaha, for me, that is. As i'm into this kinda field. I would very much love to play in an orchestra one fine day. Yeah, it would really be awesome. Till then, there's lots of work to do. I'm actually majoring in vocal now, instead of piano. Something that i never would have thought of. I don't know why. Anyway, after seeing most of my friends practicing piano so hard, i got tempted and all into wanting to change my major back to piano. But then, no... i can't. Urgh... let's skip this topic. I felt bad every time when i thinks about it. I've been learning piano all my life! Seriously seriously almost my entire life! I started piano since i was touching 4. Now i'm what, 20? And i suddenly made a huge change to majoring vocal. Its not really in my comfort zone. Really it isn't. Well, all that i can hope now is that i don't feel regretful about it. I've got looottssaa things to work on. Especially my language.

I felt like giving up on my teaching. I felt, cramped up. really cramped up. I don't have time for my own and my social life besides my unimate? ZERO.....

Apart from that, i'm trying to lose some weight. Excessive fats XD haha! I'm trying to squeeze in some 'my-time' into my schedule. Trying to go jogging with my roommate after lectures. But at the moment, i'm always out for events. Haha! So, apart from long walking, i have not been exercising. Urgh... fat giler! haha!

Alright,i'm gonna stop here. I'm really tired already. Next lecture is at 5pm. Then, there's a fac party and seniors' picking us up. Guess what's the theme? PAJAMAS! omg..... they are serious! urgh....hahahaha! Alright, alright.... till then, God bless you all, readers! Have a great weekend ahead of you =)!

p/s : i'm stuck with teaching.... sighness.... i hope you're being grateful, my dear dear students!

Love,
Carmen Leong

Still alive?

2010-07-19T08:30:00.000+08:00

Hehehe, if you're wondering that am i still alive? Yes i am. Haha! Had been busy for the past 2 weeks. Heck a lot of things to do. Lectures has already begun since last week. So far, honestly, i only enjoy my music classes. The rest... some are quite racist like. I don't know why. But i just felt so, and i don't like it at all.

I'm supposed to wake up early to catch breakfast with my roommate, Mei Yee today. But i was kinda tired and lazy so, i sort of like, omg.... i feel so bad lar =( ish! And yes, i'm hungry now with nothing to eat except biscuits. But its too dry so, not taking.

Alright, i guess i'm going to stop somewhere here cause need to go get ready and need to prepare for my vocal class. sigh.... everything on my own. must improve myself aready.

Till then, adios!

God bless,
Carmen Leong

SIBUKDAY

2010-07-01T14:21:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, i went for a body check up with Sharon and Sally. We went to government's one in Kelana Jaya. Unfortunately, they said we have to book =.= right, the one in Puchong where i did for my National Service doesn't require any booking. And, they said if we book that day, the earliest we can get will be on the 6th of July which is a week after. By then, i'll be starting my uni already. So we went to a private one instead. Costs more than government's one of course. But, the one we went its kinda cheap. After done everything, follow Sharon and Sally to visit their ex-boss (known as MJ to me haha) at Craft Brews somewhere opposite Tesco near Ikea there.

Yup, we had lunch there. Set lunch. So, its cheaper hehe... I love how they decorate the place. Very relaxing. And yes, very clean. After that, we have to head home. Sad, i've got vocal class and Sharon needs to go back and rest too. Had great time with my 2 sisters. And yeah, me and Sharon was planning a surprised lil celebration for Sally as her birthday's approaching but couldn't celebrate that day as we'll all be everywhere and unable to come back. Its a lil hard cause Sally's with us THE WHOLE TIME. hahahahahaah! Yes, guess how we (me and Sharon) discuss? Through sms. Yeah, when we're only sitting next to each other =.= hahahaha! it was funny though. But at least, we managed to make it totally not obvious at all ^^ me likey. So after she drop me off and after my class, i went to get Sally her birthday present. She likes to read. And only certain stories like i do. Gotten a lil advise from Sharon to get the p/s i love you.

But too bad its outta stock. So i bought this instead. I read the book already actually. Infact, its a birthday present (mine, that is XD)

I bought the bigger picture one, for her. heheh.....

That day, was my last class with her for the month cause i'll be away to UM and have to stay there for quite some time. Seriously, i don't know when will i be coming back here in Subang for real. But of course, i do come back every weekend as its quite near. 30 minutes drive. That also, i'm back for the teaching class.

Wednesday, yesterday, Sharon pick me up, together with Sally we went to Mydin to get all our stuffs that we need for UM. I spent about 60 bucks in total. I didn't really bought a lot as some of the stuffs i already have at home.

My besties

Sharon and Sally

After the grocery shopping, we head to Taipan to get shampoo (sharon and sally). I didn't get one myself as i already have one. After that, we walk all the way to USJ9 for our dinner at Nirvana (i think haha!). We were there early so the 3 of us had Tosei. I kinda like this one. I seems to have problems uploading photos from camera to blog. So, sorry, not much photos today. About 8pm, we finally settle down and have dinner we with the rest of the sisterhood. Then, we went to Starbucks to celebrate Sally's birthday ^^ hahaha, but not yet, everyone's still acting. We get our tumblers

and everything we want, cakes, drinks, then settle down at a corner ^^ Then surprised!! We sang her a song. Then gave her the gifts. ^^ hehehe!! Yup, the birthday gurl sure was shocked. My camera wasn't really good so, i didn't take much photos. Hehehe..... then, i have to go back already. Curfews............. Anyway, here's a good group shot. I think its the best one ever that we've taken.

Ah, what memories...

I'm gonna miss them lots. My dear sisters.... *tears*

Sisters, all the best to you guys in everything that life may offer. I hope that you'll face it all without fear and that, do stay in touch through emails and fb. Remember that we're all in this together whether or not we're going to the same universities. And, hopefully when Raya break comes, we get to meet up. I'm dying for that day to come. Dear, dear sisters, misses you all lots! Love ya.......!

Lots of love,

Carmen Leong

A year has pass...

2010-06-25T14:45:00.000+08:00

Yes, a year has pass. It was today, a year ago, that Michael Jackson has left us. He may have physically left us, but, everything about him, his songs and such, will lives forever. He truly is one of a kind. He is, a legend indeed. There's no other like him. And, you can be sure that there can be no one like him cause he's just, too amazing. Inside out.

Words can't describe how great he truly is.

He has a heart of an angel. He has a voice with no comparison. His songs, dance, everything, moves people. Changes lives. Not one. But people from all over the world. So far, he's the only one who i know makes every individual feels very special. He cares about people genuinely and all. Those people, are strangers to one another. Can you find anyone else like him? He too, has succeeded in gathering everyone around the world together. Has any leaders succeeded so? No....

I appreciate to those who still pays tribute to him anywhere. I appreciate all medias who plays his songs and showcase something nice about him.

So yeah, even if you're already gone, michael. You'll always have a special place in my heart!

Love you lots!!

Carmen Leong

sighing

2010-06-24T11:21:00.000+08:00

My chest tenses so much these few days till i have breathing problems
My head hurts
Got so much things to do
I'm losing focus
So much unanswered questions
I don't know what to do now
I'm really tired emotionally and i'm gonna break down any moment

Counting down

2010-06-22T13:25:00.002+08:00

Hey readers!

I know its been a long time since i've updated my blog. I've got so much to tell you! But not sure if i'd remember it all XD

Well, i'll try XD or, i'll just refer back to my diary (good point) XD

15.6.2010 (Wednesday)
Mum went back hometown for a prayer ceremony to her late mum (my maternal grandma). The thought of it makes me feel upset cause i didn't get to spend much time with her before she has to go. No doubt i love her. Its just sad that i couldn't get to show it to her in person. What's the use of crying and crying after she's left? Its just miserable.

I spent my entire day watching '90210' today. yup. my bro downloaded the entire series.

My favourite among all??
Well, he's not in the photo above.
Guess who??
Liam!! (Matt Lanter) XD Gosh! He's sooooo damn cute and hot!
I don't know what you guys think but i'm starting to go a lil crazy soon XD

What kinda guy i like? The wild type ^^ just like him (Liam). Not too extreme.
Am i weird or something? I love classical songs, passionate about it, but i adore guys who are into a lil street racing, loves pop and R&B music, wild, not too much though, but just good enough to make me go crazy. If he loves classical, its a bonus as well. He ought to be able to sing, plays guitar, big blue/hazel eyes, a hunk with a mixture of sweetheart type, knows how and when to be in control, $$$!, treats me right, has got sensitivity to certain extend...OMG! I'm fantasizing XD Urgh, if that kinda guy does exists, my life will make 720 degrees turn! Just like a dream...

17.6.2010 (Thursday)
I had a splendid time today with both my brothers and my babies (juniors from choir). Been such a long time since i hangout with them. Hehehe...

Well, what i i did today....
7.45am - reverse car for dad
8.00am - continue with '90210'
9.00am - send brothers to school, tidy house, check mail
10.45am - photocopy songsheets
11.00am - visits choir
1.15pm - home, get ready to go out
1.45pm - pick up 2 juniors, off to pyramid, lunch, movie

7.00pm - drop juniors off while on the way to family dinner
9.00pm - JM meeting (not pleased with it)
10.00pm - Home sweet home~!

Owh, my NS friend, Nelly Chan has reached Selangor! Good!! But i couldn't meet up with her as i've a lot of stuffs to do (as always recently)

Feeling a lil emotional at night so decided to play some emo songs from my phone. Like, "Teardrops on my guitar" and "Man in the mirror". Michael Jackson has inspired me in many ways that no one else could. He has got quite a big impact in my life. Because of him, I shall not give up what i love to do.

Other than music, i love to organize events like i did last year, "Amazing Race". Its the biggest event i'd organized. Probably my first too. But, it shall not be my last. And, perhaps, i'll scrap everything and rethink of something new for Jiran Muda. I know i'm not in. But, i love organizing.... weird.... hahaha!

18.6.2010 (Friday)
Guess what?!?! I've got accepted into UM!! It was totally totally totally crazy! Now for me, the most important thing is, getting a very good teacher, stay outta campus, do extremely well in uni, still get to teach on weekends and graduate within 3 years. That's all i ever wishes for at the moment.

Right, forgot to talk about Toy Story 3. So anyway, I really love and enjoyed the show. Watching it reminds me that i've watched the 1st and 2nd ones. And, it shows that the movie grows with us. From Andy being a little kid and now, heading to college. Reminded me when i first watched the movie with my brothers through the 1st and 2nd, and now, the last one.

19.6.2010 (Saturday)
It was a pretty weird day. Everything, including at work, talking to my mum, on facebook and twitter. I'm actually stepping into uni-life! Can you believe it?? Carmen Leong, is stepping into uni-life! What's more shocking that, its gonna be in UM. It was as if just yesterday that i've just finished std6. *sigh* Never ever in my life would i thought i'd be there. But of course, overseas university would be an even more eye-opening and better for my resume and such. I'm feeling really akward since the moment i open the 'letter' the day before. But it only hit me even more today because is no longer a dream, its call, reality! Time flies.... In a blink, i'm now 20.

There's lots of things to prepare for uni. Excited? Heck i am! Scared? Yes, i'm feeling it more.

I hope i'll be getting a laptop soooooon. Oh my goodness gracious! A step into uni-life? You must be kidding. Its more like a LEAP into uni-life for me! I'm coming out of the 'shelter' finally!

Its soooooo weeiirrdd!!

I REALLY NEED A PLACE SCREAM!!

ANY SUGGESTION?!

I'M ABOUT TO EXPLODE WITH EXCITEMENT!!!

I've never been more grateful in my life than now. I felt truly blessed. I felt, God is willing to give me one more chance to correct my mistakes and to prove myself. Lord, You are GOOD! You hear me? YOU ARE VERY GOOD!
Life is all about choices. Thus from now on. I choose to take up responsibilities whole-heartedly and to accomplish it sincerely and till i could do no more. I'm going to bind myself to classical music. I cannot afford to blew it up and disappoint myself, my family, me relatives, my teachers, my friends and most importantly, YOU, LORD, who has given me this crazy opportunity to step into music field though i doubt from the start.

21.6.2010 (Monday)
One of my favorite student, Carmen Yong (yes, same name as me but different personalties and character) XD.... drew me a picture. Lolz, its so cute of her right? I really loves her. She somehow treats me like her bestfriend. Tells me stories and stuff. Haha! And, she talks more than i talk, and her talking can like, last up to 60% of the class.

I had a great time today with my girlfriend. Michelle Tan (monkey) and Kelly Loi (now a mouse). I needed a good break from reality. And i'm so glad i had it with them. Couldn't be any better. Food, movie, and shopping.Though, i admit, i'm totally broke! hahaha!

There's a lot of stuff to prepare for uni but not one was able to tell me what specific stuffs that i will be needing. Or was it all prepared by uni/lecturers? Anyway, i hope that UM will not be as tight as i thought i'm feeling it. Talking about tight, I'm already feeling the pressure and tense-ness before i even get into it. I know i shouldn't. But I've so many thoughts in mind at the moment. So many things in mind. Yup, and i can't seem to organize my thoughts at the moment. This is kinda frustrating. I just hope that i'll get everything straighten out soon.

So, i guess i'll be blogging a lil more frequent till i can't blog anymore (when uni starts)

Till then, toodles!

Lots of love,
Carmen Leong

p/s : appreciate every little things in life.

Just an update

2010-06-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

Hey! Sup!

Yeah, i'm here to just keep my blog update a lil, just like the title says. "Just an update"

Actually, there's really nothing much to update about me.

I'm still running on my 'vocal marathon'. And, i love it. A WHOLE DAMN LOT! Haha! I'm serious, really not being sarcastic. Not a single bit. I really love classical vocals. Much more than piano classical. I'm thinking about doing it as my major. But, there's lots of stuff to think through though and, i'm not sure which one really suits me.

I didn't make it for my teacher's vocal concert (felt really bad). But, i wasn't feeling well at all. Diarrhea. No idea what i ate. Heh!

Vocal exam, erm, i did okie, but somehow, i felt, i'm not quite ready for the exam yet. Don't know why.

Work has been great as usual, a lil more students coming in for piano lesson. But at the moment, i'm dying to teach vocals! Buahaha! Why? Cause, i don't have to really follow syllabus and, i can improve myself more when i teaches 'em. My piano has improved a lil more although at the moment i'm not taking any piano lesson my own. So yeah, whatever you do, just so long you put your heart to it, you're bound to improve even though its just 1%. ^^ No? Well, its up to you to figure it out.

Right!

I was reading this lovely book, "Where rainbow ends" by Cecelia Ahern

A really good book. I sit through it in 2 nights (since i'm busy)

And, i even finishes it although i had vocal exam the next day and knowing that i need the enough rest. Haha! Really, if you're into a good book (lovey dovey kind), pick this one.

Since i started reading this book (though its even just the 1st page), Cecelia has become my immediate favorite author.

I've got 2 more of her books to catch to add to my collection.

Sadly, one of it,

yeah, this book, i couldn't seem to find it in any bookstore anymore.

Shoot, i forgot to check it out at Times, where i work. Owh well, next time, that is...

Results to which government uni to where they'll kick me off to is coming out soon. 3rd week of June. Nervous? oh yeah! Definitely!!

Hmm, i guess i gotta go. Wanna catch "Ghost adventures" series now.

TIll then, tata!

Loves,

Carmen Leong

Can you?

2010-06-09T09:59:00.001+08:00

Hey! first of all, i wanna apologise that i didn't blog about my brother's birthday dinner. Hehe, i kinda promised to blog about it through dinner. Or perhaps, i did not. Anyhow, i couldn't upload the pics from my phone to blogger, so, i decided to drop the post.

My title today, Can you?.
I was just mentioning in my twitter that i'll be putting up a poem that i came up with yesterday night. And, its sort of a continuation from my previous poem (if you follow my blog). Hehe, enough with the talking i guess....

Can you see it
   can you see it not...
Seeing it with your eyes
   seeing it with your heart.
Can you feel it
   can you not...
Feeling it with your gentle touch
   feeling it with your purest heart

Dream after dreams
Night after nights
Following what was told by the heart
To release
To keep
To forgo
To holding on

One must to decide
The day
The night
The sky
The land

White rose...or...Morning sun

Running pass mountains
Running pass rivers
Passing storms
Passing deserts
To find one's true love
Among the midst
Among the blazing fire

Can you see it
Can you feel it

White rose sees it all
White rose feels it all
Never wanting a heavier mountain
To be in the path of ones love
Petals of hers may drop
Dries she may be
The least she hold
The brighter it is ones may see

It's all she ever ask for
It's all she ever hope for
It's all she ever dreams
That the knight
   in his joyous moments ever

Hehe, done.
You like it? Yes, its a very simple one. I'm not very poetic. But i do love writing up a poem when i'm tune into the mood for it. This one's a short one as I was just writing up about how i suddenly feel and well, it only takes me about 10 minutes? For me, how to start a poem is kinda tough. Cause have to think of something that rhymes. I love the middle part as, it'll come easier when you've figured out how to start off. The ending... heh! No comment.

Right, i did mention in my twitter too that i'll be keeping a journal/diary? Yeah, that's cause i'm not allowed to come online at night. And so, i can't update my 3rd blog that often. Yeah, i've got 3 blogs in total. This is my first. My second blog is, linked from my blogger profile. Its about how bad our society are now. That one, i don't really update much. More like, there's only one post. I only starts posting up when i've got good topics to talk about. You can check that out if you want, and you can even suggest a topic for me to write it up? ^^... My third one, its confidential *wink*. Hah!

What kinda blogger am i?
Some ask...
I'm more of a...emotional blogger? Or, in better words, i blog according to my mood. Hmm, emotional blogger, don't think that's the right word. Makes me sounded kinda emo person. Haha! Anyways, i have got no photos today... And i'm done for now. Till then, see ya around!

p/s:
tonight, will be attending my teacher's concert.
tomorrow, vocal practice.
friday, vocal exam then night, concert rehearsal
saturday and sunday, working... whole day =(

Loves,
Carmen Leong

Ade's Day! on "Sibukday"

2010-06-03T14:19:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was "Sibukday". Why, you may ask?

Well, just in case i never talk about it, (maybe i had, but forgotten) my sisterhood consists of Sally, Sharon, Woon Kwan, Woon Teng, Adelyn, Abbysha, Janelle, and me ^^ And, erm... its quite a long story hahhaaha! i'm a bit lazy to continue. But i think i did blog about it. Or is it in the previous blog that i've deleted?

Hehe! Anyhow, my day goes like this...

Woke up, update my fb and twitter, chat with my friends...

Do house chores, then get ready and waits for Chee Yan to pick me up.

While waiting for her to pick me up, ya, i was camwhoring... XD OMG, i don't know why have i become so vain lately!

me and my stupidness....

you can skip today's post if you want XD

urgh, no idea what happened to the double eyelid sticker

kinda like this among all XD hahaha

I think i should name this post "Self-indulgence" instead XD hahahah! or in another words "SS-ness of me" XD

Chee Yan came about 4.30pm and we headed off to Empire immediately. We're pleased that they have not start the ticketing yet for parking. Cause if they do, more than likely not, its gonna be kinda expensive since like what Chee Yan said, Pavilion's parking ticket costs about RM22! OMG, for one damn space! Sheesh! But yeah, its a high-class shopping mall. But still! That's like robbing people's money! Or its like putting up a statement saying, "If you don't have the money, don't even think about stepping into my mall!"

Heh!

Reached Empire, and was 'amazed' by how the parking lots are, with many unnecessary spaces required, complained non stop till we're in the mall. Went around to try to figure out what to get for Adelyn. And it came to us that, we've already walked around the entire building within 20 mins? Yeah, kinda small, huh. At least its better than Summit cause there's nothing you can do in Summit. After found something that we think its okie, head to Coffee Bean for 'yam cha' session while waiting for the rest to arrive. haha! Guess what time was it when we was about to sit? 5.20pm? meaning we've got about an hour plus to wait XD And OMG! the Coffee Bean there is seriously not bad at all! I had "Double Hot Chocolate" (if i'm not mistaken that's what being called) its tastes Heaven! And sure is more worth it compare to Starbucks! But then, its true to what Chee Yan commented. It all depends to who's the barista. Heh, I forgot to take picture there XD and while chatting with Chee Yan, we were packing the gift for Ade and removing the price tag. While at it, we found out that the key-chain was, damaged! So, we waited for the rest to come before we went back to ask for a new one.

About 6.15pm, Sally and Sharon reach ^^ finally! hahaha! Went to ask for a new one while Sally and Sharon went around to find something for Adelyn. They bought a wallet. After that, we meet up with the rest (Woon Kwan, Woon Teng and Adelyn).

Owh wait! I left something out XD After awe've got what we wanted, me and Chee Yan headed to Toys 'R' Us... And lolz, we're over-excited when we're at the babies section XD hahaha! and we both keeping saying how lucky all the babies now cause there's so much convenient stuffs for them... The cradle, everything! Then Chee Yan spotted this really cute + cool tiger made from a larger scale of lego ^^ cuteness!

Then....

yeah XD chee yan playing it. haha!

Really cute...

Then the twins called to say that they're here already and told to meet up at Chilis.

Off we went!

It sure takes us a long time to have our order done cause just don't know what to eat! Urgh, hated when it happens XD and, as usual, sadness, its my first time eating at Chilis. Hah! that's cause i only goes to all these places with friends. With family? Its always about Chinese food. Yeah, i know, I'm very much Chinese oriented myself too.

So, here's all our order XD

sharing

twins and ade's

this is mine and yan's =p

sally's

sharon's

Ade's and twins

The surprise for Ade's from the Chilis staff

heh, sorry, slow with my phone camera

cause i too was surprised with it XD

There were 2 other fella who celebrates their birthday with Ade there, at Chilis

nice ^^

tradition time XD we press down the candle and Ade has to take it out with only her mouth XD gak! i missed to take that shot.

hehe, i like this....

owh, though we ordered one each (the food) but we shared cause definitely cannot finish XD especially me, don't ask why.... hahaha! perhaps its because i had a coffee with chee yan earlier. So i kept giving my portion to Woon Kwan.

Done at Chilis, pay the bill, head to Starbucks for a chit chat. Stop at some shops for a lil while. Well, that's when i start to think about Hammy and misses it so much XD Felt like hugging it so much that moment hahaha!

At starbucks..... i didn't order anything... cause still damn full and had my Coffee Bean much earlier. So only me, Yan and Ade didn't get ourselves anything. Chit chatted till 10pm then we had to go back already.

1. Twins has to go to Singapore the next day, which is today.

2. I've got curfew but of course i did not tell them. But of course, they knew.

When my parents call means its time for me to go XD

Chee Yan sent me back home and reached at almost 10.30pm

Heh, missing them now....

Shower, still with make up on, sudden got the urge to.... lolz! you guessed it! Camwhore!

In my NS inner shirt. Long sleeves.

loves this ^^ maybe i should make this my fb profile pic

owh yeah! i bought myself a new pair of earing. I couldn't resist of not getting that! though i just bought 3 new ones few days ago. Gak! Shopping really got me bad

Nice ^^???

It has white lining too! ^^

And, i superly luuurrrvveeeesssss white color ^^

Chee Yan bought one too. ^^ Hers has pink lining.

Right, let me tell you something about my sisters and their favorite colors XD

Pink - Chee Yan, Janelle

Purple - Sally, Woon Teng, Adelyn

Green - Sharon, Woon Kwan, Abbysha

i'm the odd one =p mine is white XD buahahaha!

Do take note =p wanna get me anything, white is my color! XD

Remove my make up, and... camwhore mood strikes again XD

Alright, this is how i looks like without any make up at all....

My eyes are small, and i look pale, and, i'm ugly.... ready? don't see if you don't want to...

Boo XD!

urgh, lightning not good...

major difference? oh yeah!

haha!

=.=...............

Alright, like i said, i should name this post as "Total self-indulgence"

OWh!

before i leave, Happy Blessed Birthday to my dearest (1st) younger brother! ^^

Real eagle, btw

Alright, toodles for now ^^

Loves,

Carmen Leong

Not so well

2010-06-02T11:10:00.003+08:00

Morning readers ^^

Hehe, have not have my breakfast.

I think i've caught a flue this morning. I can't stop sneezing. Haha!
Leading to headache and migraine....
And, chest tense...baaah....

Anyway...

Yesterday, i bought Trudtox. Yeah, i seriously bought it since it says it works gently. But, looks like not for my stomach. Heh, mum said too much junk in my tummy XD But at least its good to know that Trudtox is doing their stuff.

Right, i sorta sprained my right hand yesterday. And, there's the swollen part of my arm which has been there for 2 weeks now, i have to say. I don't know how i had i injured my arm. And, there's no bruise or anything. Just swollen and it hurts from within. Mum wanted to bring me for acupuncture later. But noway! I ain't getting any of those needles! So, this is what i did to my right hand yesterday night XD

Heh, i've become of an expert in wrapping up like this

ever since even before the National Service.

At National Service, i always sprained my leg.

Bad sprained which can lasts up to a week plus. haha!

And, i even help my roommates with it when they sprained theirs.

Hmm, guess what happened to my pin?

XD not my fault! Been using it for 2 years already

Will be celebrating Adelyn's birthday later at the Empire. I can't wait cause i'll be seeing my sisterhood too. And true enough, we always gather on Wednesday. Hmm, fates ^^ I guess I'll be wearing the topless top that i blog about it my previous post.

Right!

My bro's birthday is tomorrow!

Dad's birthday is next week (exactly a week after bro)!

And Father's Day the following week!

Sheesh! I'm going bankrupt!

And, i've got no idea what to get for them all! Not to mention i haven't gotten anything for Adelyn. But will be heading to Empire with Chee Yan early to her something.

My baby choir is attending MCE. GAAAH! I'm missing those MCE moments. Ans i miss my babies too.... Well, hope to see them soon.

Till then,

Toodles ^^

p/s : where's gilbert? He ain't online...

Loves,

Carmen Leong

Loving F Block!

2010-06-01T10:29:00.001+08:00

Sup!

I wanted to blog about Wesak Day actually but i don't know what happen, decided not. Though i took quite a number of pictures when i'm there. Anyway, i just wanna update about my haircut and a sneak peak from F Block.

At last, i decided to just trim my hair and layer my fringe. And, yeah, the fella chop 2 inches off =( 2 inches... i wanted a trim.... Owh well.... Anyway, here's what i look like now

i love how i look in this photo ^^ no make up on except for the eye.

double line sticker with mascara.

lolz, i love the comment my friend, GIlbert, posted for me on fb

"your eyes are very pretty in this photo, very twinklely ^.^"
Lolz, thanks again, Gilbert =p

Okie, i'm feeling so vain all of a sudden hahaha!

Owh, last Sunday, i went for a mini shopping with my colleague. At first, we're like, "okie okie, we'll come here to shop when we've received our salary". But in the end, we bought something, somehow. Hahaha! She bought a really sexy body hugging short sleeveless black dress. While i bought 2 tops. One is topless. The topless one, has got 70% discount! After discount, its only RM17+. OMG, yeah, from F Block. And in total, i spend RM40.70!

I like this lots ^^ excuse the bulging tummy hahaha!

Yup, this is the topless top!

Its cheap right?

Lol, i'm loving F Block!

Lol, GIlbert, this is the top that i wanna show you XD

Alright, till then, my next update would probably be Adelyn's birthday.

Toodles ^^

Love,

Carmen Leong

Cut cut cut and away!

2010-05-24T15:02:00.001+08:00

Yup, as the title goes. i wanna give my hair a good cut. But i'm still not sure to what style to go for. Definitely keeping the length. I don't wanna cry for cutting it short again. lol. and, should i get a side bang? i'm not allowed to colour and perm my hair though. heh, limited choice for sure. But oh well, its for a good reason ^^

I NEED HELP!!!

Love,

Carmen Leong

Not so smooth

2010-05-20T13:22:00.002+08:00

Things has not been smooth last week. A lot of unlikely stuff happened. Not only i missed Mother's Day due to work, last Friday, i lost someone close. I lost, my grandma. My maternal grandma. Whom i only see not more than once a year last year. This year? Not even a chance. The pain i bare is unspeakable. But i believe my mum, bare the most. She, among all her siblings and among all those around my grandma, is the closest to her.

I went back to Chemor on Saturday morning after passing the cake. Here's how the cake looks like...

Deco : Cooking chocolate for writing, surrounded by chocolate chips

Upper layer : tiramisu

Lower layer : cheese cake

Price : RM75

Grandma... i'll miss you... i'll always remember you...

forgive me for not being able to visit you often due to a lot of circumstances that's in the way. I don't even get to see you one more time and call you before you move on. i'm so sorry... i'm not a good granddaughter. i'm very sorry...

This photo... will i look at each time i thought of you.

Grandma, rest in peace.

i'm sorry....

i love you......

Dear readers, tell your love ones that you love them. Appreciate them before its too late. You'll never know. Anything could happen. I hope is a lesson learn to you all as well. Life is short. Don't do anything that'll make you regret and don't miss anything that'll cause you to regret later. And also, don't forget, appreciate those around you. Nothing lasts on earth, not even us, humans, we're fragile too. All's never lasting, except love.

Don't regret later. Be thankful.

Loves,

Carmen Leong

HyPeR moments

2010-05-07T11:04:00.001+08:00

I don't know why but i'm feeling kinda hyper yesterday night and i started camwhoring non stop XD but i'm only pleased with a few of it.

shall i post?

shall i not?

hmm....

right...

caught me once more XD

my Cheeshaly XD xoxo

its the cutest ever

yesh, my current fb profile picture

hahahahahahah

Cheeshaly don't wanna take pic with me XD LMAO lameness of me

my fluffy dolls ^^ all are dogs-like
except Cheeshaly and Cowie and Hello Kitty

okie, i look really pale here

but anyway, if you notice, this time i camwhore without any make-up on ;)

alright, enough with my self-indulgence hahahahha!

then i decided to pamper myself with applying

that's my secret to keeping my hair healthy

without trimming my hair for more than a year now...

that's why you can see the 'glow' hahahha

after lotions and stuff, before bed...

i realised that....

i need to clear out what i don't need. hahahhaha

alright...

i'm done for this post XD hahahha

Am gonna continue bullying my hammy-friend XD

Love,

Carmen Leong (Camel hahahah)

My Phone ~ heartache

2010-05-06T12:44:00.001+08:00

Something is wrong with my phone. The entire file of Michael Jackson went gaga! I thought it disappeared but when i connect it the comp, its still there. Just the entire file went wrong. And, worse, i can't delete it! =( what happened?!

Anyway, i did my mask for the 3rd time using this new Polynia product i bought

i like it that every time i used it, my skin don't look so tired the next day ^^

and my panda eyes not so visible =p

=p heheheh

and i tried the 'larger' kinda double eyelid sticker after curling my lashes.

boy! i love the effect!

erm, yeah, after i did my mask and washed my face of course. heheheh.

lolz. my eyes look kinda scary XD

Alright, i'm off to shower then try recording my 2 composition.

p/s : should i curl my hair to make it wavy?

God bless ^^

Carmen Leong

New Blog

2010-05-04T09:50:00.001+08:00

After much thought till i fell asleep last night, i have made up my mind to come up with a new blog regarding this matter. Cause i find it rather disturbing.

The URL is
http://muchthoughts.blogspot.com/

Check it out =)

God bless us all,
Carmen Leong